Diam tak diam, 10 days has passed by...but not too late to "feel" and "taste" the new year air. I haven't listed down my new year resolutions, tapi rasanya last year's list is still relevant..but can still be reviewed though!
But keep on reminding myself, each year that passes means a year less from my lifetime... pretty scary, but that's fact. Allah swt memang nak kita selalu mengingati mati, supaya kita membuat amal ibadah seolah-olah akan mati esok. Supaya kita tak leka dan alpa. Tak sombong dan bongkak. Supaya mengasihi dan memberi yang terbaik untuk orang-orang tersayang. On the other hand, we must also work hard mencari rezeki seolah-olah akan hidup seribu tahun lagi. So that kita bersungguh-singguh bila mengusahakan sesuatu. And be remindful of the responsibilities we have towards the society, yang masih ramai memerlukan bantuan kita. If we are not making enough, how on earth can we help them? So, it's not right to think "duit tak boleh bawak mati". Yang dibawa mati, bukan duit tu of course. Tapi pahala for the good deeds we did with the money. If there's not enough money, nak buat good deeds macam mana...The ability to get good things and make us feel great and bersyukur pun kira good deeds ;-) Nih yang obviously myself haven't achieved yet...and need to achieve.
I feel living life is like flipping the pages of calendar. As the months go by, I flip its pages, never to flip the pages back. Those months that have passed will never come back. Similarly, as the days and weeks and months of my life go by, they too, will never come back. What is gone, is gone. I beg for Allah's mercy to allow me to have a better life this year...spiritually, physically and financially with my loved ones. Semoga tak menjadi manusia yang rugi walau sesaat pun. I just want to love and be loved ;-)
