Ya Allah The Almighty..
I have gone through so much pain and sadness. 3 MONTHS have passed...but the pain is still there. The hurt is so unbearable and the frustration is too much for this weak heart and soul. Puas mencari kekuatan, tapi kekecewaan juga yang bertandang.
I have not been my normal self for uncountable days. Every second is pain, pain and pain. I have tried to find in my heart to forgive and forget, but this human called ME is so full with revenge, anger, hatred, sadness, frustrations...and nothing is able to change that yet. Wanting to go away, but my life is here. I'm taking my own ways to deal with this tsunami. I'm hurting myself more, just to be strong in the eyes of the others.
Ya Allah,
Ampunkan aku kerana menjadi hamba yang kecewa dan penuh sesalan. Sesak jiwa menahan duka, tapi apakan daya.. Although this is not the best thing to do, but this is the best I can do..for now. Please..Ya Allah..please do not stop pouring your love and guidance upon me. I'm certainly not a good slave of Yours. I've let myself drown in the test that YOU have given.
Somehow, in this broken heart of mine, I know.. that I can turn to you for the ETERNAL LOVE.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Hong Kong 18-21 Feb 2011
Alright, this was 4 months back.. It was definitely one of the most beautiful family vacation we've ever had. Everyone of us had a great time and we're still talking and dreaming about it...
The 4 days 3 nites trip was just right, not too long nor too short for us to complete the places of highlights in Hong Kong. Disneyland, Ocean Park, The Peak, Soho & the longest escalator, the night markets, Avenue of Stars...hmm what else ya..?
The hotel was good, we took two rooms at Dorsett Seaview Hotel and yeah, it was close to everything. Even the nite market was just behind our hotel, making it so impossible not to go down and SHOP!! Food was not a problem despite being our biggest worries at first. We had nasi beriyani & roti nan everyday without fail. It is pricey, of course..every meal would be about RM100 -130 for the 5 of us but hey..it's worth it! Sedap and guaranteed halal... there were many halal restaurants near Kowloon Mosque ;-) Seven11 is everywhere along the streets, so setakat nak beli mineral water, chocolates or sweets..no problemo..
The best part: Their public transportation was fantastic and way...way ahead of Malaysia. Their MTR system was just amazing, it connects you to basically every part of Hong Kong. Naik bus pun senang, and all those moving around were made easier as we had the Octopus Cards. So easy and convenient that you can hardly see the Hong Kong people driving. Jalan tak sesak macam KL...where most people terpaksa drive sebab public transportation TERUK!! Resulting to scenes where we can see dalam satu kereta hanya ada 1 orang inside it, that's the driver himself. Mana jalanraya tak sesak...
The 4 days 3 nites trip was just right, not too long nor too short for us to complete the places of highlights in Hong Kong. Disneyland, Ocean Park, The Peak, Soho & the longest escalator, the night markets, Avenue of Stars...hmm what else ya..?
The hotel was good, we took two rooms at Dorsett Seaview Hotel and yeah, it was close to everything. Even the nite market was just behind our hotel, making it so impossible not to go down and SHOP!! Food was not a problem despite being our biggest worries at first. We had nasi beriyani & roti nan everyday without fail. It is pricey, of course..every meal would be about RM100 -130 for the 5 of us but hey..it's worth it! Sedap and guaranteed halal... there were many halal restaurants near Kowloon Mosque ;-) Seven11 is everywhere along the streets, so setakat nak beli mineral water, chocolates or sweets..no problemo..
The best part: Their public transportation was fantastic and way...way ahead of Malaysia. Their MTR system was just amazing, it connects you to basically every part of Hong Kong. Naik bus pun senang, and all those moving around were made easier as we had the Octopus Cards. So easy and convenient that you can hardly see the Hong Kong people driving. Jalan tak sesak macam KL...where most people terpaksa drive sebab public transportation TERUK!! Resulting to scenes where we can see dalam satu kereta hanya ada 1 orang inside it, that's the driver himself. Mana jalanraya tak sesak...
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Ouchh!!
Picture 1:My swolen ankle...
Picture 2:This is after the plaster treatment by Dr. Mazlan, the orthopaedic at KPJ Kajang.
I really hope with all my heart that my ankle will be fully healed by the time we remove the plaster@cement next week (30th June). I need to be back on my feet again for our honeymoon.. tersangat la tak cool kalau kena ronda Amsterdam pakai tongkat ;-)
Tragedi di Jakarta
Masya Allah...this trip to Jakarta has left me with 1001 memories indeed. On May 17th (that was a public holiday - Wesak Day), I took the last AirAsia flight to Jakarta for another working trip.
Upon arriving Jakarta Airport pun something has gone wrong already. Pak Boni (our Jakarta office driver) who was supposed to fetch me did not turn up at all. After my 20th (I counted..) attempt to call him, baru la dia angkat dgn terkejut beruknya when I said I have waited for almost an hour. So to cut the story short, I had to take a taxi to my hotel...
Masa check in, the reception girl said that they are going to upgrade my room to a Triple Executive Room. Mmm, what on earth for? I'll be alone, girl... uh, never mind. No time for further questions...i'm too tired for that now.
So, that nite..untuk menghilangkan cuak di hati..I slept on the King bed and my luggage slept on that single bed :-)
Pak Boni picked me up from the hotel...beratus2 kali he apologised for not waiting at the airport. He said, he will be scolded if the bosses knew about this. Kenapa pulak nak marah Pak Boni kalau message untuk menjemput tidak sampai? Seems that ada miscommunication among them about my arrival. Kesian sungguh tengok Pak Boni...I felt sorry for him walaupun semalam memang la bengang. So I decided not to tell anyone in the office what happened. I gave my widest & most sincere smile and that helped me through with lots of work done!
After work, after being told that Pak Boni dah stand by kat lobby...off I went. Keluar je dari lift together with the rest of the people (ramai jugak..time balik office, kan), I headed straight to the lobby. Masa nak turun tangga tu, entah macam mana...agghhhhh....AKU JATUH!!! OMG, at first tak rasa apa2..just terkejut & bingung...blurr, terkulat2. Then I realised, my shoe...my left shoe is gone!! Haaa? Mana dia kasutku? "Ibu nggak apa-apa? Bisa bangun? Kasutnya..di bawah mobil itu.." Errr...i heard a lady's voice asking, but didn't have the "face" to even look. I said "I'm ok. Thanks so much. Terima kasih ya, buk.." Then this guy got out of his car and helped me to get the shoe from underneath his car. Maaaaak, malunya...
Maka bermula la episod kesakitanku. That night, I was in so much pain that I cried, and cried and couldn't close my eyes to catch any sleep. I was so sure that I broke my ankle!
Pagi, I moved from my bed to the toilet, then to get dressed on the study chair. Nasib baik ada that chair ada wheels... and I almost crawled to breakfast. Instead of taking my food (buffet, kan), the waiters helped me get my food & juices. Didn't eat much, though.. And when Pak Boni finally came to fetch me, I was limping all the way.
At the office, Rini suggested that we go for urut. She knows someone near her house who can massage. But before that we decided to go to the hospital to check if there's any fractures at all. Alhamdulillah...the xray shows no broken bones or fractures. From the hospital, we went straight to Pak Abbas' house in Cililitan, a small town in Jakarta Timur. Pak Abbas and his wife were very kind. The massage was not so painful as it was done so professionally..Kruuup... kraaaap.. haha...macam tu la bunyi bila Pak Abbas membetulkan my sendi2 yang terpeleot tuh!! Pak Abbas said "Minta pada Allah ya..supaya sembuh. Saya tidak bisa, hanya Allah yang bisa menyembuhkan.." He's such a humble person..may Allah bless him all the time for his good deeds. After thanking them both, we headed to Rini's house to get some ginger paste to wrap my ankle. Pak Abbas said that will help to heal the swollen ankle faster.
As we reached Rini's house, her mum was already grinding the ginger. After a warm hello to each other, she quickly pasted the ginger paste onto my ankle and wrapped it with a white cloth. Alhamdulillah...I met all these nice people at a place so far from home. They have all been so kind, caring and helpful although we have never met before. I'm so deeply touched with the love they have...sedih bila ingat that I may not be seeing them again...
It's my last day here. I'll be taking the last flight home. Alhamdulillah, somehow I have completed a big chunk of my work during this short and "tragic" visit.. Thanks to Ibu Ida and Ibu Fira for treating me to a great Japanese lunch at Sushigroove. Ibu Fira insisted to drive although the restaurant is only a walking distance away ;-)
When we touched down at LCCT, kena turun tangga plane!! Ouhh.. ouhh..1 step, 2 step..ouhh..
I did it. But then...terus terkelepot...dah tak boleh jalan dah. The next thing I knew, I was on a wheelchair....and was pushed all the way through the custom, picked up the luggage, to the taxi ticketing counter and..until I boarded the taxi... I must say BRAVO to AirAsia for having such great staff & such a great service.
Am so happy to be home again...my kids were waiting at the gate when arrived. Z was away in Terengganu when I reached home. But he called several times that night to say that he loves me.. ;-)
Dalam hati ada bunga..
Upon arriving Jakarta Airport pun something has gone wrong already. Pak Boni (our Jakarta office driver) who was supposed to fetch me did not turn up at all. After my 20th (I counted..) attempt to call him, baru la dia angkat dgn terkejut beruknya when I said I have waited for almost an hour. So to cut the story short, I had to take a taxi to my hotel...
Masa check in, the reception girl said that they are going to upgrade my room to a Triple Executive Room. Mmm, what on earth for? I'll be alone, girl... uh, never mind. No time for further questions...i'm too tired for that now.
So, that nite..untuk menghilangkan cuak di hati..I slept on the King bed and my luggage slept on that single bed :-)
Pak Boni picked me up from the hotel...beratus2 kali he apologised for not waiting at the airport. He said, he will be scolded if the bosses knew about this. Kenapa pulak nak marah Pak Boni kalau message untuk menjemput tidak sampai? Seems that ada miscommunication among them about my arrival. Kesian sungguh tengok Pak Boni...I felt sorry for him walaupun semalam memang la bengang. So I decided not to tell anyone in the office what happened. I gave my widest & most sincere smile and that helped me through with lots of work done!
After work, after being told that Pak Boni dah stand by kat lobby...off I went. Keluar je dari lift together with the rest of the people (ramai jugak..time balik office, kan), I headed straight to the lobby. Masa nak turun tangga tu, entah macam mana...agghhhhh....AKU JATUH!!! OMG, at first tak rasa apa2..just terkejut & bingung...blurr, terkulat2. Then I realised, my shoe...my left shoe is gone!! Haaa? Mana dia kasutku? "Ibu nggak apa-apa? Bisa bangun? Kasutnya..di bawah mobil itu.." Errr...i heard a lady's voice asking, but didn't have the "face" to even look. I said "I'm ok. Thanks so much. Terima kasih ya, buk.." Then this guy got out of his car and helped me to get the shoe from underneath his car. Maaaaak, malunya...
Maka bermula la episod kesakitanku. That night, I was in so much pain that I cried, and cried and couldn't close my eyes to catch any sleep. I was so sure that I broke my ankle!
Pagi, I moved from my bed to the toilet, then to get dressed on the study chair. Nasib baik ada that chair ada wheels... and I almost crawled to breakfast. Instead of taking my food (buffet, kan), the waiters helped me get my food & juices. Didn't eat much, though.. And when Pak Boni finally came to fetch me, I was limping all the way.
At the office, Rini suggested that we go for urut. She knows someone near her house who can massage. But before that we decided to go to the hospital to check if there's any fractures at all. Alhamdulillah...the xray shows no broken bones or fractures. From the hospital, we went straight to Pak Abbas' house in Cililitan, a small town in Jakarta Timur. Pak Abbas and his wife were very kind. The massage was not so painful as it was done so professionally..Kruuup... kraaaap.. haha...macam tu la bunyi bila Pak Abbas membetulkan my sendi2 yang terpeleot tuh!! Pak Abbas said "Minta pada Allah ya..supaya sembuh. Saya tidak bisa, hanya Allah yang bisa menyembuhkan.." He's such a humble person..may Allah bless him all the time for his good deeds. After thanking them both, we headed to Rini's house to get some ginger paste to wrap my ankle. Pak Abbas said that will help to heal the swollen ankle faster.
As we reached Rini's house, her mum was already grinding the ginger. After a warm hello to each other, she quickly pasted the ginger paste onto my ankle and wrapped it with a white cloth. Alhamdulillah...I met all these nice people at a place so far from home. They have all been so kind, caring and helpful although we have never met before. I'm so deeply touched with the love they have...sedih bila ingat that I may not be seeing them again...
It's my last day here. I'll be taking the last flight home. Alhamdulillah, somehow I have completed a big chunk of my work during this short and "tragic" visit.. Thanks to Ibu Ida and Ibu Fira for treating me to a great Japanese lunch at Sushigroove. Ibu Fira insisted to drive although the restaurant is only a walking distance away ;-)
When we touched down at LCCT, kena turun tangga plane!! Ouhh.. ouhh..1 step, 2 step..ouhh..
I did it. But then...terus terkelepot...dah tak boleh jalan dah. The next thing I knew, I was on a wheelchair....and was pushed all the way through the custom, picked up the luggage, to the taxi ticketing counter and..until I boarded the taxi... I must say BRAVO to AirAsia for having such great staff & such a great service.
Am so happy to be home again...my kids were waiting at the gate when arrived. Z was away in Terengganu when I reached home. But he called several times that night to say that he loves me.. ;-)
Dalam hati ada bunga..
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
My busiest day..
I took leave today (which I applied at a very last minute yesterday) to run some errands. Time is running short before Nayli's registration at the university next week. OMG! My daughter's going to uni already!! I can't be that old...!??
Alhamdulillah, she made it to UITM to do Business Studies...as she had wished to. I'm ok when she decided to turn down another offer to do matrix programme far north in Perlis. Not so much because of the distance..but because I knew she didn't want to do accountancy. Dia pun figure phobia macam her mom ;-)and that's alright!
Having planned my itineraries well, I have managed to do so much today and am so impressed with myself. First thing in the morning, we went to do her medical check-up at Kajang Medical Centre and paid only RM60 for the whole procedure including X-ray which took us less than an hour!! I thought it was gonna be longer and cost me more than a hundred ringgit...
Then, off we go to buy her other things...like the sports attire, her shoes, the lingeries, brooches for her shawls, a pair of jeans, shirts, etc. etc. Saved some there and spent much more here...sigh ** that's life..
Quickly drove to Standard Chartered to pay my credit card bill, and stopped by at my tailor to pick Adam's school trousers which had its zip repaired. Then rushed home just before my maid, Tumi came to clean up the house. While she was doing her things, sempat lagi I lari sekejap to deliver some orders to Kak Nafisah and gave her some tips to make homemade bread ;-)
At about 5.45pm, when Tumi was done with her work..we all went to have nasi lemak (yummy). Then sent my forever hungry girl, Tasha off for her Biology class...Oh my, that girl really eats a alot!
Huhh! Baru terasa penat..Now I think I deserve a good massage..before another long day tomorrow! Meoooww...
Alhamdulillah, she made it to UITM to do Business Studies...as she had wished to. I'm ok when she decided to turn down another offer to do matrix programme far north in Perlis. Not so much because of the distance..but because I knew she didn't want to do accountancy. Dia pun figure phobia macam her mom ;-)and that's alright!
Having planned my itineraries well, I have managed to do so much today and am so impressed with myself. First thing in the morning, we went to do her medical check-up at Kajang Medical Centre and paid only RM60 for the whole procedure including X-ray which took us less than an hour!! I thought it was gonna be longer and cost me more than a hundred ringgit...
Then, off we go to buy her other things...like the sports attire, her shoes, the lingeries, brooches for her shawls, a pair of jeans, shirts, etc. etc. Saved some there and spent much more here...sigh ** that's life..
Quickly drove to Standard Chartered to pay my credit card bill, and stopped by at my tailor to pick Adam's school trousers which had its zip repaired. Then rushed home just before my maid, Tumi came to clean up the house. While she was doing her things, sempat lagi I lari sekejap to deliver some orders to Kak Nafisah and gave her some tips to make homemade bread ;-)
At about 5.45pm, when Tumi was done with her work..we all went to have nasi lemak (yummy). Then sent my forever hungry girl, Tasha off for her Biology class...Oh my, that girl really eats a alot!
Huhh! Baru terasa penat..Now I think I deserve a good massage..before another long day tomorrow! Meoooww...
Monday, May 2, 2011
French words I learned today ;)
French is one of the toughest languages to learn, simply because you can't necessarily say what you see...and most of the times too, you must say what you don't even see...haha..how about that? Let's look at this!
Avenue des Champs-Elysees - is pronounced as ah-ver-new day shon-si-li-say
Arc de Triomphe - Ark duh tree-omph
Louis Vuitton - Lu ii wee-thon
Pheww, that's pretty tough huh ;)
Avenue des Champs-Elysees - is pronounced as ah-ver-new day shon-si-li-say
Arc de Triomphe - Ark duh tree-omph
Louis Vuitton - Lu ii wee-thon
Pheww, that's pretty tough huh ;)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Book 2 Look!
Z has just bought 2 more new books a couple of days ago, and one is by my favourite author..Robert Kiyosaki, The Business of the 21st Century. I'm always inspired by his books, beginning with Rich Dad Poor Dad many years ago. I've read among others; Retire Young Retire Rich, Cashflow Quadrant and The Business School for People Who Like Helping People.
The focus of his books varies, but the ultimate point is "to take charge of your future by taking control of it - today". It's about creating the entrepreneur mindset, about changing from the employee quadrant to the business owner and investor quadrants. It's so inspiring how he keeps reminding that we must have our own business...as there is no longer such thing as a safe and secure job.
Globally, the reality is:
- many people have smaller savings
- bigger family debts
- nbr of people working beyond the age of 65 is increasing
- life gets tougher
Your job is not gonna take care of you. The government is not gonna take care of you. And no one will..
Hmm, can't help flipping the pages.. I'm only half way through!!
The focus of his books varies, but the ultimate point is "to take charge of your future by taking control of it - today". It's about creating the entrepreneur mindset, about changing from the employee quadrant to the business owner and investor quadrants. It's so inspiring how he keeps reminding that we must have our own business...as there is no longer such thing as a safe and secure job.
Globally, the reality is:
- many people have smaller savings
- bigger family debts
- nbr of people working beyond the age of 65 is increasing
- life gets tougher
Your job is not gonna take care of you. The government is not gonna take care of you. And no one will..
Hmm, can't help flipping the pages.. I'm only half way through!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Nice Thursday...
8.00am - I was already in the office. Bought nasi lemak and 2 magazines for breakfast. Yup, I eat & read equally a lot ;-)
9.00 am-12.00 pm - work, work, work..
..Then the focus ended when I saw FOOD being prepared at the lobby area for our Human Excellence celebration. (this is one occasion where we have makan2 to celebrate our birthdays)
12.00 - 1.00 pm - work a little, talk more ;-)
..and the makan2 started...yeay!! We had a wonder-full plate of nasi hujan panas each, and superb sliceS of Butter Scotch cakes from Secret Recipe. Yummmie!! It was nice eating with my buddies who have good appetite just like me. And we didn't forget to pose to Ina's camera with our sweeetest smile. I only realised that even tonite I still do not know whose birthday we celebrated today... hmm... I'm so sorry, but Happy Birthday, somebody!! (I think there were more than 10 of them)
Oh yeah, just before that wonderful lunch... I came to know that Nayli made it to the Accountancy matrix programme!! Alhamdulillah..that's my girl ;-)
2.00 - 6.00 pm - Didn't I WORK, WORK, WORK? (And ate some kerepek with Aina)
No wonder I didn't finish my Shariah proposal paper... Ooh, I better behave tomorrow and clear some of those papers. Anyway tomorrow's Friday...then comes the long weekend. Thanks to Labour Day, ngeh ngeh ngeh ;-)
9.00 am-12.00 pm - work, work, work..
..Then the focus ended when I saw FOOD being prepared at the lobby area for our Human Excellence celebration. (this is one occasion where we have makan2 to celebrate our birthdays)
12.00 - 1.00 pm - work a little, talk more ;-)
..and the makan2 started...yeay!! We had a wonder-full plate of nasi hujan panas each, and superb sliceS of Butter Scotch cakes from Secret Recipe. Yummmie!! It was nice eating with my buddies who have good appetite just like me. And we didn't forget to pose to Ina's camera with our sweeetest smile. I only realised that even tonite I still do not know whose birthday we celebrated today... hmm... I'm so sorry, but Happy Birthday, somebody!! (I think there were more than 10 of them)
Oh yeah, just before that wonderful lunch... I came to know that Nayli made it to the Accountancy matrix programme!! Alhamdulillah..that's my girl ;-)
2.00 - 6.00 pm - Didn't I WORK, WORK, WORK? (And ate some kerepek with Aina)
No wonder I didn't finish my Shariah proposal paper... Ooh, I better behave tomorrow and clear some of those papers. Anyway tomorrow's Friday...then comes the long weekend. Thanks to Labour Day, ngeh ngeh ngeh ;-)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
My little prayers...
In the past few years, I have seen a couple of my close buddies going through a tremendous improvement in their lives. N has actually moved house twice in the past few years. She was living in a condo when she had her first child. Then they shifted to a beautifully renovated link house in an exclusive housing area. And not long after, after giving birth to her 3rd child they shifted again..this time to a beautiful, million ringgit bungalow house in the same area. Not to mention the luxurious cars that she drives...I am so, so happy for her.
A, my other buddy who lives just nearby...had moved from her previous link home to a huge and beautiful "mansion" in the golf club. At one time, she almost had to sell-off her link house to offset the unpaid debts when the economic situation was really bad and business was down. But now, I bet she has everything in the world that she wants. She's just another lucky woman on earth ;-)
Hey, it's not their status that "wows" me...but its the angels they have in them. Despite the changes that they have gone through, they are still the same wonderful friends to me. They still act the same and talk the same girls' nonsensical stuff just like those days. And I observe that they have even became a better muslimah. N never failed to invite me to any of the usrah sessions held at her house. Despite carrying their Gucci and LV purses, both of them are actively involved in the Al-Quran reciting classes, Arabic classes etc.
I am so proud of them for the values that they uphold. I know the pain that they have gone through before... There was so much pain that they never thought life was gonna be this good. I believe that they have so much faith, and they have worked really hard to get to where they are now.
May Allah continue to bless them with all the great things. And may Allah give me the same strength and spirit to move forward for a better life..physically, financially and spiritually. The same dua goes for all my beloved ones. Although things may seem uncertain now..have faith, that one day..with the will of Allah the Almighty, we will achieve our dreams. Aminn..
A, my other buddy who lives just nearby...had moved from her previous link home to a huge and beautiful "mansion" in the golf club. At one time, she almost had to sell-off her link house to offset the unpaid debts when the economic situation was really bad and business was down. But now, I bet she has everything in the world that she wants. She's just another lucky woman on earth ;-)
Hey, it's not their status that "wows" me...but its the angels they have in them. Despite the changes that they have gone through, they are still the same wonderful friends to me. They still act the same and talk the same girls' nonsensical stuff just like those days. And I observe that they have even became a better muslimah. N never failed to invite me to any of the usrah sessions held at her house. Despite carrying their Gucci and LV purses, both of them are actively involved in the Al-Quran reciting classes, Arabic classes etc.
I am so proud of them for the values that they uphold. I know the pain that they have gone through before... There was so much pain that they never thought life was gonna be this good. I believe that they have so much faith, and they have worked really hard to get to where they are now.
May Allah continue to bless them with all the great things. And may Allah give me the same strength and spirit to move forward for a better life..physically, financially and spiritually. The same dua goes for all my beloved ones. Although things may seem uncertain now..have faith, that one day..with the will of Allah the Almighty, we will achieve our dreams. Aminn..
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Where have I been?
Oh, where have I been all these months? Everywhere, really. That's why updating even one post is so much a problem.. that's what happens when your heart is not there. When I'm made to write in the office 8.45 - 5.45 (and always later than that) day in and day out...my brain is already drained out by the time I reach home, and so is my body.
Nevertheless, some achievements have been accomplished. I go to gym twice a week at the least to fix that tired brain & body of mine again. Started with just walking at first, now running on the threadmills is kacang putih... then continued with cycling, up and down the "hills"...also kacang putih. So much I can brag... hahhaa... but the timing... 10 minutes for each ride, stop, pancit. Another 10 minutes, stop, pancit again... hahaha.. Aduyai, letih macam ni. Z will take all his time with his favourite machines so I always had to wait. But when he couldn't see me around, he knew just where to find me. At the massage chair, relaxing. Or at the couch,watching tv or reading ;-) Hmm, at least i tried..
Had a few trips in between too. My working trips to Jakarta continues until we complete the project.. I travelled to Jakarta once a month since February and the longest one last month (8 days) was really killing me. My phone bill hilled up to almost RM500 and I missed home like crazy. Hated it ;-(
Oh, but my holiday with Z and the kids to Hong Kong in February was fabulous. The feeling was very unusual when I see my kids enjoying themselves with us. No, this is not luxury and we have a mutual understanding that it's not. It's something that we gonna do only once in maaaaany years. And it's worth while because the kids really appreciated it ;-)
Nevertheless, some achievements have been accomplished. I go to gym twice a week at the least to fix that tired brain & body of mine again. Started with just walking at first, now running on the threadmills is kacang putih... then continued with cycling, up and down the "hills"...also kacang putih. So much I can brag... hahhaa... but the timing... 10 minutes for each ride, stop, pancit. Another 10 minutes, stop, pancit again... hahaha.. Aduyai, letih macam ni. Z will take all his time with his favourite machines so I always had to wait. But when he couldn't see me around, he knew just where to find me. At the massage chair, relaxing. Or at the couch,watching tv or reading ;-) Hmm, at least i tried..
Had a few trips in between too. My working trips to Jakarta continues until we complete the project.. I travelled to Jakarta once a month since February and the longest one last month (8 days) was really killing me. My phone bill hilled up to almost RM500 and I missed home like crazy. Hated it ;-(
Oh, but my holiday with Z and the kids to Hong Kong in February was fabulous. The feeling was very unusual when I see my kids enjoying themselves with us. No, this is not luxury and we have a mutual understanding that it's not. It's something that we gonna do only once in maaaaany years. And it's worth while because the kids really appreciated it ;-)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Off to Jakarta...
I'll be leaving for Jakarta today, later in the afternoon. Although not the first time to Indonesia, but first time to Jakarta... Excited? Worried? Tired?
= All of the above...
When I travel, it has always been for leisure. But this time, it's purely WORK. Work with tight deadlines. When the assignment was first given to me, I thought.. hey, this is not gonna be easy. Working with our counterpart in Jakarta is gonna be a totally new experience for me. But when I asked my big boss why he has chosen me, he said "I want you to know that there opportunities for you in this organisation. You are not young (ouchhhh!!), so grab this opportunity!!"
So I did. I'm taking this opportunity to move on, if not to move up (simply because "moving up" means more stress, so I choose to "move on..") hehe.
I'm all geared up for the tasks given. I've got my checklist ready. My things are packed last nite, except for some last minutes things like the toiletries that I'm gonna stuff in later... I'm almost ready for the 5 days trip ;-)
To Z and my kids:
I love you all very much. Thanks for the support and love you've given me. I'm gonna miss you very very much. But will be back soon to be in your arms again...
= All of the above...
When I travel, it has always been for leisure. But this time, it's purely WORK. Work with tight deadlines. When the assignment was first given to me, I thought.. hey, this is not gonna be easy. Working with our counterpart in Jakarta is gonna be a totally new experience for me. But when I asked my big boss why he has chosen me, he said "I want you to know that there opportunities for you in this organisation. You are not young (ouchhhh!!), so grab this opportunity!!"
So I did. I'm taking this opportunity to move on, if not to move up (simply because "moving up" means more stress, so I choose to "move on..") hehe.
I'm all geared up for the tasks given. I've got my checklist ready. My things are packed last nite, except for some last minutes things like the toiletries that I'm gonna stuff in later... I'm almost ready for the 5 days trip ;-)
To Z and my kids:
I love you all very much. Thanks for the support and love you've given me. I'm gonna miss you very very much. But will be back soon to be in your arms again...
The Dream...
I had a weird dream last night...
I was driving my *supposedly new car, a sedan, maroon in colour...alone. Then suddenly there were two roads in front of me.. Not sure of which lane to take, my spontaneous reaction was to take the left one. Not long after, I realised that I had taken a wrong road as it was under a construction with lots of potholes and big drains on both sides. Realising that I could not go any further, I decided to turn back.
The road was a bit too narrow...so I had to reverse slowly to one side to turn back. Carefully..I did the best that I could...but NO... Ohhhh...ohhh NO, suddenly I felt that the car had plunged to the back...and my 2 rear wheels were already in the drain!!! Pheww...I was sweating in side out...but luckily I managed to slip out of the car with no trouble at all...
And...as I went out of the car, a little shocked with what had just happened...I called Z, my super hero over my handphone to come to my rescue. Somehow, the next thing I did was trying to lift my car out off the drain....
And, with very less effort, I actually lifted the car off the drain...and onto the road ALL BY MYSELF !!! Hahaha...amazing....wasn't that an accomplishment?! So when Z finally arrived with another friend, I was already standing next to my half damaged new car, calmly and proudly ;-)
So, what could the meaning of this dream be agaknya ya....
1. The authority should be blamed for not putting up a proper signage like "ROAD CLOSED" or anything like that... (yeah, I didn't see any signage at all, I swear!!)
2. I'm always uncertain when it comes to which road to take, unless the sign board is LARGE enough and can be read from far...(regardless of how often I have passed through the same road before....ngeh ngeh ngeh...)
3. Or...simply means that Z should start to worry.... with the fact that I have became very strong & gagah perkasa... If lifting the car is no problem, then lifting him is..... hahahaha.... that's for him to imagine ;-)
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Looking superb
Thanks to hejab-rehab.com for sharing this post. I like the looks very very much, so stylish and yet still nicely covered. It's a whole true meaning to the phrase "dress to kill" for us, the muslimah ;-D.
Simply beautiful!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Little new toy!
Another happy day, yeay! Alhamdulillah, I finally got it! After contemplating between iPhone4 and Blackberry, I've finally chosen HTC Desire HD... and it's really a hot babe! Been trying to get it at the Digi outlets for the past 2 weeks, but the stock was so limited and manjang takde! It's selling like hot cakes! Lucky me, my booking payment got thru very fast! Yeay! Gumbira sgt bila that Digi guy called and said my phone has arrived ;-)
Although I'm always the lembap one with all these gadgets but this one is so irresistable... hahaha! Its applications yang giler banyak...exciting to explore and play around. The size...yup, penuh tangan ku ini nak pegang sebab agak besau. Tapi puas la kalau nak tgk movie, photos etc. And not to mention the speed! Very, very fast....faster than me ;-D
Tadaaaaa......
I like this new year gift, really! ...SO MOTIVATING...now I can work hard and play hard too ;-)
Yezzzaaa...I'm in love with my hubby.. (significant....significant...hehehe..)
Although I'm always the lembap one with all these gadgets but this one is so irresistable... hahaha! Its applications yang giler banyak...exciting to explore and play around. The size...yup, penuh tangan ku ini nak pegang sebab agak besau. Tapi puas la kalau nak tgk movie, photos etc. And not to mention the speed! Very, very fast....faster than me ;-D
Tadaaaaa......
I like this new year gift, really! ...SO MOTIVATING...now I can work hard and play hard too ;-)
Yezzzaaa...I'm in love with my hubby.. (significant....significant...hehehe..)
Monday, January 10, 2011
Talking about the good deeds; going places to see the world is also good deeds..at least for ourselves. So we would be able to see and appreciate what Allah has created for us on earth. See the people of different colours, the grass though green but of different green, the sky though blue but of different blue, and the ocean, and the mountains...aaahh..
This year, I hope to do a bit of travelling. Mudah-mudahan ada rezeki dan diizinkan Allah swt. Just to have a short break from the normal routine and get energised. So need to adjust on our expenses a little so we can save enough for the trip. Untuk si diri yang serba tak mewah ni, it has always been budget holidays. Makan seadanya, cari hotel pun yang seadanya...asalkan objektif asal (that's to travel) tercapai. So far Alhamdulillah dengan budget yang sangat kedekut, dapat lah singgah barang sehari dua at these places:
1. Sydney (first overseas trip with Z...unforgettably awesome)
2. Singapore, a few times (yg walaupun dekat, tapi tak logik punya mahal..so tak leh gi selalu)
3. New Zealand (Auckland, Dunedin, Queenstown, Wanaka) superb! Indahnya alam ciptaan Tuhan...
4. Bandung, a few times (best best best boleh pergi lagi..shopping, bingo!)
5. Bali...hmm..honeymoon lagi aku & dia..
6. Thailand a couple of times (bukan Bangkok, Phuket pun bukan.. tapi Golok and Narathiwat, hehe)
Mmm, that's all so far! Domestic holidays banyak lah gak, sebab memang kaki berjalan...So now, hati dah meronta-ronta seeking for another holiday... And for that reason too, I have to squeeze between my children's and our tight schedule, and allocate walau hanya sehari dua...
This year, I hope to do a bit of travelling. Mudah-mudahan ada rezeki dan diizinkan Allah swt. Just to have a short break from the normal routine and get energised. So need to adjust on our expenses a little so we can save enough for the trip. Untuk si diri yang serba tak mewah ni, it has always been budget holidays. Makan seadanya, cari hotel pun yang seadanya...asalkan objektif asal (that's to travel) tercapai. So far Alhamdulillah dengan budget yang sangat kedekut, dapat lah singgah barang sehari dua at these places:
1. Sydney (first overseas trip with Z...unforgettably awesome)
2. Singapore, a few times (yg walaupun dekat, tapi tak logik punya mahal..so tak leh gi selalu)
3. New Zealand (Auckland, Dunedin, Queenstown, Wanaka) superb! Indahnya alam ciptaan Tuhan...
4. Bandung, a few times (best best best boleh pergi lagi..shopping, bingo!)
5. Bali...hmm..honeymoon lagi aku & dia..
6. Thailand a couple of times (bukan Bangkok, Phuket pun bukan.. tapi Golok and Narathiwat, hehe)
Mmm, that's all so far! Domestic holidays banyak lah gak, sebab memang kaki berjalan...So now, hati dah meronta-ronta seeking for another holiday... And for that reason too, I have to squeeze between my children's and our tight schedule, and allocate walau hanya sehari dua...
New Year is here again...
Diam tak diam, 10 days has passed by...but not too late to "feel" and "taste" the new year air. I haven't listed down my new year resolutions, tapi rasanya last year's list is still relevant..but can still be reviewed though!
But keep on reminding myself, each year that passes means a year less from my lifetime... pretty scary, but that's fact. Allah swt memang nak kita selalu mengingati mati, supaya kita membuat amal ibadah seolah-olah akan mati esok. Supaya kita tak leka dan alpa. Tak sombong dan bongkak. Supaya mengasihi dan memberi yang terbaik untuk orang-orang tersayang. On the other hand, we must also work hard mencari rezeki seolah-olah akan hidup seribu tahun lagi. So that kita bersungguh-singguh bila mengusahakan sesuatu. And be remindful of the responsibilities we have towards the society, yang masih ramai memerlukan bantuan kita. If we are not making enough, how on earth can we help them? So, it's not right to think "duit tak boleh bawak mati". Yang dibawa mati, bukan duit tu of course. Tapi pahala for the good deeds we did with the money. If there's not enough money, nak buat good deeds macam mana...The ability to get good things and make us feel great and bersyukur pun kira good deeds ;-) Nih yang obviously myself haven't achieved yet...and need to achieve.
I feel living life is like flipping the pages of calendar. As the months go by, I flip its pages, never to flip the pages back. Those months that have passed will never come back. Similarly, as the days and weeks and months of my life go by, they too, will never come back. What is gone, is gone. I beg for Allah's mercy to allow me to have a better life this year...spiritually, physically and financially with my loved ones. Semoga tak menjadi manusia yang rugi walau sesaat pun. I just want to love and be loved ;-)
But keep on reminding myself, each year that passes means a year less from my lifetime... pretty scary, but that's fact. Allah swt memang nak kita selalu mengingati mati, supaya kita membuat amal ibadah seolah-olah akan mati esok. Supaya kita tak leka dan alpa. Tak sombong dan bongkak. Supaya mengasihi dan memberi yang terbaik untuk orang-orang tersayang. On the other hand, we must also work hard mencari rezeki seolah-olah akan hidup seribu tahun lagi. So that kita bersungguh-singguh bila mengusahakan sesuatu. And be remindful of the responsibilities we have towards the society, yang masih ramai memerlukan bantuan kita. If we are not making enough, how on earth can we help them? So, it's not right to think "duit tak boleh bawak mati". Yang dibawa mati, bukan duit tu of course. Tapi pahala for the good deeds we did with the money. If there's not enough money, nak buat good deeds macam mana...The ability to get good things and make us feel great and bersyukur pun kira good deeds ;-) Nih yang obviously myself haven't achieved yet...and need to achieve.
I feel living life is like flipping the pages of calendar. As the months go by, I flip its pages, never to flip the pages back. Those months that have passed will never come back. Similarly, as the days and weeks and months of my life go by, they too, will never come back. What is gone, is gone. I beg for Allah's mercy to allow me to have a better life this year...spiritually, physically and financially with my loved ones. Semoga tak menjadi manusia yang rugi walau sesaat pun. I just want to love and be loved ;-)
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